Christmas 2011

well its been 1 yr since my last post,for this i have no excuses,and again will certainly try harder to remain in better contact.This seems to be a time of year that makes me look at myself more then usual.I tend to think of family that has passed or family members that i am no longer close with.Its times like this that used to be my excuse to go overboard and abuse drugs and alcohol.I am sure that hollidays are a trying time for all addicts,myself included.The mental obsession never leaves completely,it just lessons.As time goes by you gain more tools to deal with things that normally we would assosiate with self medicating.I have finnished work for the winter(i am in road construction),allthough i do snow removal.There has been no snow accumilation this year,which is very rare for this part of Canada.With alot more spare time on my hands,i am not worried.Iddle hands used to be the devils workshop,no longer the case,i can happily say.I am still in the most powerfull,positive,and loving relationship of my life.I have found my life partner and soulmate,and most importantly the best friend anyone could ever hope for.Kim has been my guiding light for almost 4 yrs.Febuary coming will mark 4 yrs,the most awesome 4 yrs. of my life.I am trully blessed.I would like evryone who is struggling today to know 1 thing,it gets better.With some hard work,the path becomes clearer.Day by day,hour by hour,or minute by minute,however you have to strugglr through your day,it gets easier.It really does.Good things come to those who try to do the right things in life.I can attest to this.