One day at a time!!!

Hello,my name is Gary,and i am an addict.The new year has always been a time for me to use.It makes me very proud to say that i abstained .Along the same way we prepare for a night out on the town,i prepare for a quiet night at home.The urges that still call are no less evil these days.I am told that the mental obsession never leaves.It only lessens.So when i say that i have been clear of cocaine,crack and opiates for over 2 years,that does not mean that i ahve not thought about using.I think about using probally 1-5 times daily.I think about what would happen to me if i did.I think about how let down the people close to me would be.I think about how all the hard work would be thrown away.I think about relationships lost.I think about where it would lead me to.I am beginning to think healthy.When i was using the only thoughts about using were when,how and with who would i be using.Well i refuse to go to that place.I have suffered so much.And that pales in comparrison to how i made others suffer.I do not harbor many regrets,but the 1 i do is the regret of how much of my life I wasted on drugs and alcohol.