OLYMPIC SPIRIT "GOING FOR THE GOLD"

Well its the last day of the 2010 Olympics in Vancouver.Being Canadian,i am so proud of the olympic spirit being exhibited by fellow Canadians,and iam extremely proud of our athletes.They have really surpassed all expectations(at least ones i had),and have represented our beautiful country in an exceptionally proud way.The amount of dedication and personal sacrifice is amazing.To just get there is awesome,but to be able to rise above all others and be the best in the world is really incredible.Our athletes have brought this country together as a whole.Today is the final day of an excellent Olympic games.All the volunteers and organizers deserve a pat on the back for sure.They are the backbone of every games.
In a way i am able to equate my addiction to that of an athlete.I have been working hard at getting myself in a place where i am leading a healthy and productive life.I am a winner!!!I have earned my GOLD medal.I have shown myself that through some unsellfish hard work,that i could rise above my personal bests and keep going forward in a positive fashion.I am soooo proud of myself and my accomplishments.It has taken some hard work and constant dedication,and a complete team of friends,family,and now a most wonderful partner.Never durning my days of using would i ever have thought that i could or would compare my life to that of an olympic athlete.In this battle,that i am winning today,second best will not be ok.I am GOING FOR THE GOLD!!!!

Great day,Kimmy(my special partner) and i did some shopping and purchased tickets to a night of rock n roll.There is a benefit for Haiti in our city next month.Featured will be awesome tribute bands that cover The Allman Brothers,The Band,and The Gratefull Dead.Should be a really fun night,for a very worthwhile cause.Since Kimmy and i were on the island durning the earthquake,we feel a connection to the people and island as a whole.While we have donated some allready, we are happy to be able to help a little more.Since getting off of the drugs that i allowed to consume my life,giving never felt so good and rewarding.Man i have feelings.For so many years i went without feelings.I blanked out everything.I had lost my partners,friends,and family,so i learned to cope by shutting down alot of emotions.I wouldn't allow people to get close to me for the fear of losing more really scared me.Everyday i am so happy to have made the choice to surrender,and admit that i was powerless over the drug,it controlled me.Today i am in control.I talk from the bottom of my heart,and everyday is a gift.No matter how deep you are in addiction,there is hope and promise.Just check your ego and pride aside and ask for help by addmiting there is a problem,Keep an open mind.Never lose hope.You CAN OVERCOME !!!!!!!

Life is Great

Well its been almost 1 year from my last post.It justblows my mind that nobody has even asked a question.I started this with the thought of helping someone through a tough time.Now maybe its time to try and post more regularly,then people would have more faith.My e-mail is on here and that is what i check alot.Life has been going great.Lets see where to start,i am still with the most beautifull woman i have ever met.We have done so much this last year.Just got back from 1 week in the dominican republic.This would have never happened if i was not clean.My long lost sister celebrated her 1 year clean.She is a warrior,i have watched her progress very closely.She was hardcore,on cocaine and synthetic heroin(oxy-contin,and morphine)She is on methadone to help with opiate withdrawl.There is nothing for the withdrawl of cocaine,contrary to some beliefs,the real withdrawl to cocaine is all mental.The mental fascination is emmence.So with alot of soul searching and family support she is clean.With myself and my sister both overcoming huge addicitons,we are both so lucky.I mean we really are beating the odds.The odds of 2 addicts in the same familly both conquering thier demons at different times is so unheralded.The odds were so stacked against us,and through hard work,determination and friends and family with undying support has helped get closer to the final product that will allow us to be happy is now a living dream.My mother is as happy as i have ever seen.She finally has all her children safe and clean.I am so proud of my sister and of myself.We both realize just how much we have lost,and just how selfish we had been.If we work hard,have some good support in place,we can overcome all!!!!